lily

the air freshner in the room stinks of fake lillies and there is rain in the air. I sit alone in the dark, the smell invading the pores of my body. i hear voices that yell and scream in the far distance. there must be something wrong with me. or is there something wrong with this place, i think.
i think and i think, thoughts arrive in a barrage of unsoakable rain. an old distant acquaintance intrudes my thoughts. in a moment of utter confusion, i am certain the intruder is me.
i reach for the silence, but i am unable to find it in the dark, i feel for the light switch and flick it on. the mellow soft rays of the shaded lamp light up the room in a faint hue of yellow.
the shadows mesh in with the darkness and the wind picks up.
i can now hear the rain pattering against the window, drumming my senses into oblivion like some drug. the sound is overpowering.
i flick the light out, and suddenly the drumming eases. my senses relax and i hear another sound now, and with it a light, a bright flash of hot electricity lights up the skies and makes strange shadows in the room.
i get up and walk into the next room in the darkness, the smell of the fake lillies follows me. i feel something crawl up my leg. i stiffen as the crawling object makes it way up my legs, paralysed with fear. i debate with myself if i should shake it off or crush it with one quick slap. i wait for it to get higher up to my thighs and then in one swift, smooth movement i bring my palm down on the exact spot where the crawler was.
the remains have disappeared. it couldn't be that fast i think. it couldn't have possibly gone away.
and then the sensation returns on my shoulder, the same crawler, roaming on my skin with its hairy legs like an unwanted and unwelcome, but unapologetic stranger.
i rush out of the room, falling in the insane process, and roll on the floor. till suddenly i am still and the crawler has left me. it has disappeared.
i myself now crawl to the light switch and turn it on, the main lights of the room. they flood the entire place in a bright white light. i get up, the darkness is gone. the lillies are gone, the rain has slowed down, and all is well it seems. for now.